yggdrasil

Drinking From the Tree of Life

In ways that fall onto others like pollen, where it blooms within the consciousness of others, possibly rooting into what we define as “human", but also known as identity—

Spreading out into the world.

Or maybe it’s the other way around? Maybe what is deeply human is always springing from the center of ourselves like sprouts from a seed. And as we all flow down the Greater Timeline, perhaps humans continually find ways to pull from that center.

That is why I like the word nullstep. Because it says to the world—

“I am. What I feel and experience is reality. I will not be erased.”

It is a statement of mattering, emphatic.

To wrap oneself and everything around you in this concept, means that you will not go. And that you do not choose to end, until you choose to end. It is a statement of agency. And a statement of will.

Of character.

Of identity.

And it is a conclusion I’ve arrived at through my experience that I have seen, tracing the diameter of my lens thru Black Identity and then discovering many more lenses through which to see myself and the world throughout the years.

nullstep is a conclusion rooted in identity with the hope of establishing a model to recognize what identity is, and all the ways in which it can and will manifest beautifully.

It is a statement, direct. To those that wish to see people erased, for simply holding their accurate reality. Erasure of Reality & reality is a horrifying thing for people and likely the root of most disorder.

I have acted in ways of disorder too, but I didn’t allow myself to remain there— to remain ugly. I would always change. Earned by facing the ugly sides of myself through life— fighting & improving.

I’ve made this effort in hopes to be an entity, iterating. Growing sharper. A well defined concept. So I can face myself with a supreme and humble pride.

It took labor, and work, and emotions I didn’t conceal. Emotions which made the world notice. For the better, and for the worse.

Then iterating, again. I pull from that center. I do that labor. This is the work that waters & cultivates the tree of life which connects all of us.

We are the fruits of that tree. And this work is done out of love & reverence for the world, and Time, and Reality. To show a better self to the world, so that self may reflect and iterate a better world. This is Love Temporal. There is a domino event we can trigger.

A world held together by an integral harmony consisting of that which is real. So that we may all flow down the greater timeline in calmer waters of this vast and dark sea. For the individual, a promise to be better.

And nullstep, for me, protects that promise. And that is why it erupted from me, during recent instances of erasure where my soul said—

“Enough.”

I feel a most effective way to improve mental health is to look out for one another. None of us are exempt from the role.

Actions and events will ripple through people. We all splash. Something astonishing can effect a whole community. This can be +/-. We all share a collected consciousness, in a way.

The way it binds us reminds me of roots. Perhaps all tied to a giant tree.

Ideas & concepts will catch to these roots infectiously.