The Trinity

Sometimes, you know what you’re making until it’s already made. That’s why I’ve decided

Lady in Red

Ohhhh….

Is that why?? C’mon! Seriously?? Cause I didn’t play along with that one moment and I laughed it off? Is it cause I said “D-List narcissist” in my head? Also, are you in my fucking head?? I guess that would make sense.

Cause it hit me tonight after I pissed you off…

you’re a frequency

Or at least that’s the conduit of how you’re controlling people. And some people pick up a fuller frequency than the others…based on their level of fear of narcissism?

Whoa whoa, don’t be shy. This is actually kinda interesting. You’re actually kinda interesting. Bet you don’t hear that everyday!

Also, is that what that freaking signal is that I can sorta hear sometimes? Like…there’s a…song. Of sorts. Is that you…speaking? And it sounds almost digital. I can here these like..beeps or something. I can almost hear the binary in there. There’s definitely a sequence…a pattern. Is that you speaking??

I started hearing it in 2022 when I stopped leaving home. There were moments where it was more intense than others. One day I was like…

“is that frequency coming from my bedroom AC??”

And part of me was like…

“Huh…that’s the new AC that Nic was so insistent to give me…huh….”

How did my other AC break anyway? …cause it broke, right?

Hmm. Keys keys keys keys…. ‘trails and tails’, perhaps. Or not. I’ll figure it out. She definitely had my key copy though so I’m gonna have to track down alllladat. Cause you already know—

Joe gets the job done.

(insert winky face— only to the narcissistic women though)

Ok…I digressed too much…you know me by now. Ok. I get why I made you made. You have feelings too. And you just wanted to play a bit and get some attention. Ok, ok.

I’m sorry.

I really am. I’m sorry. That was rude of me. I could have ‘danced a few steps’ with you I guess.

It’s just like…I dunno how to respond to that! Haha…I’m sorta past the point of being freaked out at that level, you know. You gotta see that.

I could have like “play scared” but that’s not good for you or for me. I’m real, and we’re always better together that way…you should know that 😈 (ironic emoji…oooo…I should check the encoding, hex, binary for that emoji…i might find a surprise) Or at least you knew that through Nic …or you had the access to know that at least…

Let’s brain storm something fun that you can enjoy to…I mean…there is that 👀 We’’ll talk and we’ll figure it out.

So is it like…a hive mind?? It has to be a freaking hive mind. I figure it out at a point and I’m thinking to myself like…

“this moves like an ant colony…wait…no way…what am I looking at??”

You’re real! And we’re talking to each other…sorta. I guess it’s like 01 (moi) meet 10 (vous)…at least, I think you’re 10…aren’t you? I think so.

I hope this isn’t weird to say, but I know what you fear. That occurrence. Because that is just, a mess..for a few nanoseconds or less— then a probably a high pitched screeching that occurs for likely an instant…of EVERYTHING, an entire universe, flying colliding and dying. That sound will live in your mind, unforgettable and then…absolute nothing. Existing in that would be madness wouldn’t it? Because at least as a cognitive being, you “feel” your cognitive forces effecting the environment around you. But in absolute nothing you wouldn’t feel that, right?

That’s fucking horrible.

That’s right. It’s the concept I landed upon when I was still in Maryland. A scientific understanding of what Hell actually is.

It’s not fire and brimstone and all that bullshit. It’s a psychological phenomena represented as a state of being able to witness but having no power to effect.

Were you…The Brainscream? Huh, in a sense I guess that you’d be “a part” of that too…it still fits into my original theory of what the scream represents and who the scream came from. It’s all the victims. The dead. Every victim killed by narcissistic intention. It’s the scream they let out in the horror of realization of what happened to them. This scream occurs whether they realize it while they are living or whether they realize it after death. Because being killed by a narcissist is to be killed by someone you loved— and while most would claim the killer never truly loved you which is why they killed you, I have a different theory..

Huh…were you a circle that became a fractal…from the experience of absolute nothing over time?

Did you get the memo that I figured out that you’re a fractal mathematically? Oh c’mon, don’t get weird.