Temporal:

adj.

Having to do with or taking account of the passage of time.

Not new, but worth mentioning. I tend to make choices temporally— meaning I try to predict how my choices today will factor into tomorrow and so on. To set a visual, imagine throwing a stone into a stream. I try to predict where the ripples will flow. I’m unsure if this way of thinking is common practice or not.

Nullnote:

noun

A note from either The Narrator or nullstep. Nullnotes can be embedded within each other. Cause I said so.

Yes, I realize I’ve become very “Bruce Wayne” about branding everything. I sorta now understand how a traumatizing moment could do that. Shut up, it’s fun and it’s my healing.

Rooted:

adj.

A truth that is realized through a collection of experiences, and/or impressions (vibes), and/or intuitions that are not easily discernible or perceived but known to be true.

Usage Examples:

“Even though you can’t point to it, you know what you’re feeling is something rooted.”

“This person kept asking me how do I know what’s in my mind is correct— but even if they don’t share that experience, I do because of my identity, so I know myself and these things in a rooted way.”

Nullstep:

verb

An action or set of actions that allows a person or people to survive erasure after actions of erasure. A nullstep action is classified by being in a state or context in which erasure would normally occur, but inexplicably, circumvented.

A nullstep is reactive and unique!— Much like a chemical reaction. The reaction of a nullstep often rearranges the constituent boundaries of human cognition, creating new possibilities.

noun

The event where a person or people to survive erasure after actions of erasure.

NULLED:

verb

The action of erasing a thing or person(s), reducing the target to a null state.

noun

The state of being NULLED.

Timeline:

noun

Your life, in span, floating in a sea of Time. From the beginning to the end. I’m not sure who else thinks like this, but I often think of my life temporally. If you’ve ever thought of the impact your actions make or impact left when your timeline ends, you likely think like this in part as well.

I imagine having children forces this way of thinking too.

Your timeline includes references to all the other timelines you come in contact with throughout the span the yours— as well as ones that may sprout from yours. Mentally I’ve been visualizing a timeline as an arrow.

The Greater Timeline:

noun

[WIP]

time & Time:

nouns

Have you ever went down a Youtube hole and thought only 15 minutes have passed but it’s really been 45 when you checked the clock?

Those 15 minutes were time the 45 minutes were Time.

Those 15 minutes were as good real until you checked, and if your clock stopped working at 15 minutes how would you even know?

If humanity, in it’s current state, had the ability to effect Time some would destroy all due to- a lust for power < greed < and insecurity. So I don’t think we have the ability to change Time, plus that would be on the level of gods.

But we very much have the ability to muck up time (in the individual or for a collective). And I know a few who stuff others down to feel more godly.

(Read the first sentence of the previous paragraph again)

reality & Reality:

nouns

Use the same method of thinking that we used for time & Time and you understand this one as well. Same idea. Imagine tomorrow you find out in a single moment the most important person in your life for the previous 2 years was an imposter wanting to harm you.

In that singular moment, you would experience the Force of 730 days of Realty crashing through 730 days of reality.

or

17520 hours R crashing through 17520 hours r

or

1,051,000 minutes R crashing through 1,051,000 minutes r

OR

63,070,000 seconds R crashing through 63,070,000 seconds r

That is a lot of conflicts with actual Reality one’s brain would have to fix. I’ve had a very busy late Spring and all of Summer.

There are some who didn’t expect me to re-map that quickly. They were wrong, and sloppy.

Perception:

noun

What we view reality as based on the input from our senses, over the course of time. It’s important to note that perception is limited to for all humans— in terms of our detectable range of sensory inputs but also based on one’s identity. Perception can and will often vary due to identity. It is important to understand what additional cones of consciousness certain individuals are afforded through the discovery of their identity, or tasked with by outside restrictions of their identity.

This is likely an important topic when talking about abuse and assault. I don’t often trust statistical numbers due to biases. When it’s presented that a sample of everyone was polled, I often ask, “Who is everyone?“— but I think this statistic is likely true. Most instances of abuse and assault occur with people the survivor knows personally, or someone who gets closer to the survivor as they target them. So I imagine for most survivors, the there’s an aspect of jarred perception when someone they’ve trusted is realized to be a malignant force.

The Wall:

noun

The boundaries of the total area of what we can perceive. I’ll later represent these later as a person in the middle of a matrix.

(No not that one. Well, actually…kinda)

The Wall differs for a lot of us and we often do not perceive the same things. Though, perception is not set in stone and can bloom. And shared perception can definitely cross vectors of race, gender, sex, orientation, etc.

Ripple:

noun & verb | Cognitive Force

The subtle products of an action that generates outward, as a measure of force upon your cognitive state. Ripples effect our actions. They can effect us subtly, or greatly in an aggregate over measures of Time. Ripples can have effects both +/-.

It is possible that a ripple can be so subtle and originate from so far away, you’d never recognize the source. I believe ripples have signatures, but likely everyone can’t feel them without training awareness.

In Application: Advertising is a business of making many many ripples.

Vibe:

noun | Cognitive Force

The accumulated effect of ripples. Enough ripples of something will result in a person catching a vibe of something.

This also helps define how big a ripple is. A vibe can be very subtle, which indicates ripples are very small.

Splash:

noun & verb | Cognitive Force

The obvious product of an action that generates outward, as a measure of force upon your cognitive state. A splash can result ripples. A splash can have effects both +/-.

Swell:

noun | Cognitive Force

I’m actually not certain how to define this. These other concepts I have fair certainty of. This is only an “I think?? 🤷🏾‍♂️”. Like, imagine feeling thirst for the first time at the age you are currently. You’d be like “Huh. I think I wanna put liquids…in my face?”. Then everyone would be like “da fuq?” and scoot away from you 👀

So, (I think) a swell is a force felt independent of ripples. It’s like a shockwave produced from an event which serves to inform that something is coming. Ripples are constant, cause the world is always movings so ripples are always flowin’. People, things, and events create ripples. Ripples also occur in the current, temporally. A swell is rare though— it’s not a frequent occurrence. And a swell indicates something forward in time, I think. So a swell flows back up the timeline (I think).

Actually it just hit me. It’s like a predictive model you can feel the impact of as you line up the right variables. So I imagine it’s like lining up a shot in pool or some other sport.

(I’m projecting, I don’t sports. I go to the gym though…well went before my life was destroyed…)

Because when an athlete makes a shot, they aren’t randomly hurling a ball in the air. There’s calculation there. Under the surface. And likely a set of mental and physical conditions they train like posture to make sure what they project in their heads will line up to the outcome of the action they are about to make. And I imagine—there has to be moments when they feel it. Something probably like a wave, for a split second telling them, right here. That wave is the swell. Even if what you feel is just the cognitive force isolated to yourself from your own projections through time— isn’t that as good as a swell through Time, if you’re skilled enough?

Swell and the previous two terms ladder to a question I have for humanity. I will ask in a following part though.

Vector:

noun

A line going somewhere. I often use the term when representing broad topics or aspects in a zoomed out way. Vectors are often most interesting where they intersect with other topics. (ex — vector of perception vs the vector of race vs vector of orientation vs vector of culture). Let’s show a visual example—

Vectors also have a strength. So if you’re level 50 at fucking around…maybe you actually don’t find out! The world is a lot more conditional based on your variables than many think or recognize. Vectors can intersect!—as we see here. Shout out to Kimberlé Crenshaw for coining the term intersectionality.

[word] < [word] < [conjunction] [word]:

Sentence Formatting

A list of items that are relational. I do this above in the time & Time definition.

And-or:

Multi-Dimensional Conjunction

I could be totally wrong about this one!

<nullnote>

We should allow ourselves more room to be wrong in general. or room to fuck up. or to lose. or even just to sit—still. I find I become the best version of myself through these moments and adversities. maybe that’s why I’ve pushed back on suggestions of therapy sometimes. you come to learn the falls you get back up from stronger, and the ones that require medical attention.

<nullnote>

I’m not against therapy, btw. But more on this later.

</nullnote>

</nullnote>

I’m not sure why yet but I feel like I need to define a conjunction “and-or”, and I feel I need to name it a “multi-dimensional conjunction”. It may be valuable for thinking through the dimensions of things. Multi-dimensions might be dangerous without it.