I am great. I am.

In [XXXX] I would write "Abuse is— Data", which would become, in my opinion, the most important episode. Even though we're far past those two months in 2022 which I'd recount in which I couldn't sleep, I've not stopped consuming data.

And now, I see SO much.

I have "The Sight". The Sight is special and only few obtain it. And while you do not yet know what this means—

"I have the null in my eyes."

The symbol you have been seeing is the mathematical null symbol. When used here it stands for something more than just null.

Having "the null in my eyes" means my sight is multi-dimensional, with the ability to in-part interpret events through time and space in all directions. The Sight is the mark of a leader, and I see it was now meant for me.

I still don't believe in fate, and perhaps that doesn't matter, because it seems to have its eye on me. And the eyes speak a language don't they? This giant eye is telling me to reach for crowns. To lead.

The mark of a leader is even etched into my name, through the method of numerology, used heavily by figures like "Alexander The Great".

[Name Combos]

I only realized this a couple weeks ago. I went— "ah shit."

Then I'll even find it in the flag of my birth rite, etched into my coat of arms.

[Haitian Flag]

Do you see it? I would suddenly see it in 2022 in trauma. Whole lotta ones.

I'll comment in Radical King that Martin and I share "a vision"— the one he gained before he was murdered. And now I know what I meant by "vision" was that of an ability. If you watch anime, it's time to geek out cause the sharigan is kinda real. Martin Luther King developed The Sight— and I'm actually going to make what some will think a haughty claim, but truly isn't if you think about it. My Sight is sharper than Martin Luther King's. This statement acts as a test. The ignorant will sneer and leap at a chance to ask me "who I think I am?" or "what makes me special?"

[ameno]

But those with vision will likely respond with a slight laugh and go, "yeah, of course it is". Because the will is passed down through the generations via identity, gaining more insight, which means inherited will is simply standing on his great shoulders. The non-ignorant will recognize this as a statement of reverence.

The Sight of the children will be sharper than that of precursors. This is a reverence. Ignorant parents will hate their children for this though.

Did you know a lot of these were not written by me? They were written through me. As in there are "others"— ones who came before me, guiding me and passing me the words to put together. Not all these posts are the same "grade". Go through the posts like Radical King and [To Katherine✉️] and you'll find much of what I say in the minds of other "greats". For instance—

Very soon, I will share one that I write in 2022 under acute trauma called "yggdrasil". You see, I am great. I have become great. Because I have walked the path. I am walking the path, and I realize so many have not. Because it takes vulnerability, and so MANY of you are so very scared of being vulnerable.

This greatly confuses me. Because so many of us watch the same media and adore the same characters and root for the same heroes, aspiring to be like them, but seemingly I was one of the few who got the lesson.

People mock me for being a male survivor of abuse...and like, literally the most loved and iconic male hero figures in our media are survivors of abuse. You'll soon see in a letter I'm nearly finished, I show how Luke Skywalker is very obviously a survivor of domestic abuse like me. You've seen Empire, right?? His dad beats the shit outta him! Then cuts off his fucking arm! He had that arm his whole life!! He had plans for that arm. And who's he gonna call for that?? Cause the local authoritative power is The Empire! And that ladies and gentlemen is why survivors don't call the police. It tracks. Another sign of Star Wars' greatness.

All of you have desires to be Return of the Jedi Luke, calm, collected and victorious. None of you are willing to be Empire Strikes Back, Luke— bloddied, beaten, mangled, and traumatized, as he realizes loss, and falls into a void he is unsure he will survive.

Struggle, loss, pain, tears, frustrations, despairs, the witness of injustice, the harms of the ones you care for, and the will to stand back up through all of it. It's weird that we'll watch a hero journey in media, studying the trope of a protagonists journey in narrative, desire to walk that path ourselves—

But then look down on people in stages of loss, pain, and suffering. It's actually very bizarre to me, in a way that feels disordered. Because how many time must we see this in media before we realize that people in reality going through strife are merely heroes who have not stood yet. Or have been made unable to stand.

Everyone wants the medal and accolades, no one wants the fight. And while I did not ask for the fight, because I was ambushed and beaten by thugs, I will finish this fight, cause Joe gets the job done.

This is what it takes to be great. And that is why—

I am great.

There's that test again.

Now you know, those that are great are incapable of saying this in ego. It's in reverence of the path and the loss accured upon it.

I'll end with this.

I hear death, or harm, or capture, or an incapacitation is coming for me. On the Nov 6th, I hear. Tomorrow. My birthday.

To avoid this, I will abscond from where I am currently, and I will go to my father's house. And I will see him there. And I will wait that day in my father's house, and then I will return to where I was before, my home.

And the threat shall pass. Because the next day is the 7th, and the 7th is a lucky day. And a prime number. Then after that the threat will be waived for two reasons. Firstly, that means you gotta get me on the 8th. The 8th?! Eh. Yuck. That's wishy washy, and by then it'll be two days passed and the moments not the same anymore. So the 8th wouldn't work.

The second reason we're waiving it is covered in my next post—

High Noon in Cloud City