“Oh gee golly Miss Nicole Block, I sho’ll is happy I gets to date this’ere big bootay white girl*.”

“Dis da truf! Ya’ll know all us darkeys love them a big boo-tay white girl!”

—Joseph JoJangles

🎶“I know what the minstrel show actually is”🎶

In the 2017 Jordan Peele film, “Get Out”, the audience will be introduced to a newly named concept— The Sunken Place. What is The Sunken Place though? I’ve come to define it as both a place and state your soul arrives at as you experience subjugation. Jorden Peele leaves an interesting door open with the introduction of his concept—

What does one become when they enter ‘The Sunken Place’?

I have the answer.

The human soul is a cognitive engine— it has awareness of self and a will that is free. A force of subjugation will seek to twist, mangle, and consume your very soul. Any delusional way in which they try to spin it, chattel slavery and the subjugation of woman are horrific and monumental crimes.

Subjugation takes you, from you. It will pull your soul down, out from under you. This is why the name “sunken place” is very apt.

One of the reasons March 7, 2022 is so deeply traumatic for me is that along with several simultaneous realizations at once, I realized Nicole Block was slowly subjugating me. I had been sinking and I didn’t realize it.

At that moment, suddenly certain off things she’d say made sense in a context. She was in-part, casting a spell on me.

There are large aspects to subjugation which are sexual, I’ve found.

Many people don’t talk about it. I’m going there. We have no fear here, and I have no strings on me.

In terms of Black men and boys, what Nicole Block attempts to do to me actually has a name. Buck Breaking.

This especially tracks because one aspect of my sexual assault is that I’m coerced into sexual acts with her husband, David Block, who is a closest bi-sexual man. Buck breaking often involved forcing Black males to have non-consensual sex with other Black males or White slave owners. I’ll realize that “breaking me” into something she could own was always her goal really. At a certain point I was even teaching her young son programming. I’d slowly feel like…I was being used. For resources, and as a resource.

I’ve since begun to learn that this was WAY bigger than Nicole. Hmm.

That day on March 7th 2022 I realized in a split second that I was becoming a slave, to be owned by the Blocks. I was being turned into a resource. I’d feel shock and disgust on a level I’m still struggling to describe.

Past a certain point in the relationship she’d often try to gaslight and manipulate ways for me to— “come over to the house”.

She’ll tell me that I can leave if I ever feel uncomfortable but that’s really a lie because she’d act in ways to manipulate me further once I’m over.

Each time I would go over her house I was ALWAYS served copious amounts of alcohol to “loosen me up”. This is textbook for sexual coercion and textbook for someone with a r*apist’s motivation. And A loser, quite frankly.

If you have no faith in your game without the other person being impaired, you’re a wimp, and a loser, and you’re admitting you have no game…like Nicole Block admits through her actions.

When does the sexual encounter with husband occur? Shhiiiiittt my guy…lemme check the video…

There you go! OOP! Wait, lemme check the court docs again to be safe before I post this…

Hmm! No mention of David Block! Just like when we’d go out on dates—

it looks like you forgot about Dave…again.

Yikes. “Daved iiiitt”

Looks like you left ‘ol Dave in my metaphorical swinging range, Blockhead.

[look what he did to my boy]

Hahaha! It’s funny cause I knew loooonnng ago that she would bank on “the shame game” and she thought I’d never mention this stuff. I’ve been waiting for this moment…

A long long time.

And now I know that’s the same game of shame that “the bureau boys” like to play…oh dear.

They are soon to find that—

I am shameless.

We’re gonna have so much fun.

What I experience in March 2022 is MANY things and one central thing is a deep and intense racialized sexual trauma.

“Finally, finally I feel free.”

Finally, finally you’ll see me.

And what you see shall wrest you free.

Desired or not, it’s what shall be.

If this frightens, you can follow me.

For there are NO strings on me.

And I’ll even tell you at the end. The experience I go through with trauma gives me SO MUCH. I go through a deeply complex psychological transformation that leads to me understand the construct of race and the intangible human component we know as identity.

It’s frankly sad that people pass me by in trauma and wave it off as some type weird ill conceived hyper-focus on race. Cause those people all miss something amazing.

What happens to me is dark, and it is fascinating.

And frankly, that Blockhead has no idea what she’ll come to unleash on both her world and THEE world.

Our world tells us to criticize, disenfranchise, rob, look down on, and pity those we call “broken”…

But I have to laugh… “funny little humans”.

The darkness within the cracks of the “broken things” is where