Actually, I’ve still not seen the famous contemporary immersive experience “Sleep No More”. I know, right? For like nine years I kept saying— “Yeah! I’m totally gonna go sometime.”

Ugh, I wonder if it’s still even showing…let’s check!

Hmmm….

What the?! Damn, that’s concerningly targeted.

Ok! Well, let’s just fake it and pretend then. And besides, who needs The McKittrick Hotel when we got the “Abuse is—” Universe and it’s sibling universes!

Because this is soon to be—

“The Greatest Show on Earth!”

Seriously. And much like “Sleep No More”, we’re also—

An Interactive & Immersive Experience!

My abuser has been in people’s DM’s. Sending messages like this one. If you were one of the targets chosen, welcome to the show!

It’s like when the performers scatter offstage and into the audience…it’s sorta awkward. But now you’re in it!

(Also what the hell is “Cats” about? I can’t be the only confused about the draw of this…and what on Earth is a Jellicle? What’s this… “Rum Tum Tugger”? That just doesn’t sound right…who wrote this…anyway…)

I wonder how many people this went to. It doesn’t matter. It’s all data. I would have thought differently when this all began, but these messages most definitely flipped some people. Especially cause a few people have gone quiet lately.

Eh.

There’s something I stopped doing a long time ago— I stopped chasing people down, trying to convince them of the truth when it seemed like there might be some influence from my abuser.

You eventually realize that all forms of loss are just part of the robbery of narcissistic abuse. This makes you stoic and focused, as you finish the work that’ll end the storm. Also, you’re heart can only break so much from the people who doubt you then leave you behind.

Please believe survivors. It kills some of us.

I’ve come to learn that a biased caricature of me stood taller than I did in most people’s mind.

Who do you see, when you see me? A person too, I hope.

The fallout of social bonds has been unfortunate…though I do like the challenge of standing even taller— not for them but for me.

Instead of feeling broken, I just take note of the data. Silence from people is data. Noise from people is data. The time of the day when people message you, or the time in relation to “Nic events” when people message you is data. Certain people suddenly being difficult when asked simple requests. Data. Hmm. Well timed and convenient distractions. Data. Interesting. There’s simply not that much consequence in the world.

I will collect all that data and I’ll continue to build. This, my vehicle. We’re almost there, and it’s almost time. It’ll get exciting soon. And I’m excited.

Speaking on the belief of survivors, and what my abuser is doing— there’s something gross I wanna change about the way we deal with abuse & assault situations.

It’s something that happens in the spectacle of abuse cases, especially those that get media attention.

I call it the—

“Tennis”

Court Effect

[looking back and forth “is he telling the truth?“ “is she telling the truth?“]

This is fucking stupid, it makes humanity look stupid, it’s harmful for survivors, it’s a spectacle abusers revel in, and we could do much better, frankly. We need to demolish and rebuild the system that allows this effect to exist.

In my situation—

I will out right refuse it.

Like most survivors should.

We were already horribly gaslit, so why should we debase ourselves to prove our reality to those unawakened. Let’s find a new and better way. Nobody changed the world, by following the broken rules.

There’s a goal to “Abuse is—” and rules to be followed in this little universe you’re joining me in right now. I’m testing out these rules to see if maybe we can implement them in your world. Let’s see the rules—

In this universe we can be inquisitive, curious, experimental, and we encourage you to especially do the following—

Not know things!

It’s fun to not know things! Cause new knowledge is an illuminating experience. Also, who of us knows everything?

Ok. So that was the stuff you can be. What can you NOT BE in regards to our rules?

Stupid.

I won’t allow stupid in “Abuse is—”. Cause stupid allows abuse. Now let’s define it. I think there’s two good ways to describe how a human enters a “stupid state”.

I sorta have a new mission in life. I’m not sure that I go back to the “tech field” directly. I’ll speak on that in another episode.

If you received one of these from Nicole Block and believed it, you have full right to be mad. Cause she put you in a ‘state of stupid’ for a bit. Try not to persist. And don’t get mad at me, she put me in a delusion for two years.

Also be mad for this next reason— Welcome to Abuse! You were manipulated, through a vector of your identity. See how easy it can occur? We’re like…abuse siblings now.

This is also part of goal of “Abuse is—”.

It’s a series that holds a mirror up to you, and will teach you something about your humanity. Will you see your compassion? Will you see your bias? Will you see the marks of someone who used your pain and fear to twist you? Will you see your lover, in our stories of narcissistic abuse? Will you see your parents? Will you see love? Will you see something entirely unrecognized? Or will you feel the grounding comfort of recognition?

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Sounds like a narcissist would rather run like hell than to look through that mirror. Hmm! Might be a good way to tell who, huh?

Lemme drop some knowledge on you real quick. Actually it’s some observant guesses and a theory. If you’ve become familiar with narcissists you’ll know that they always seem to attack in the same ways. Isn’t that weird? It suggests something animalistic maybe— instinctual.

I was thinking…if you looked at them from top down, I bet it would look like a flocking pattern. By their actions, they all sorta move in a flock.

But narcissists move in irregular ways. So the movement pattern wouldn’t look this clean. It would look more like…brownian motion.

Yeah, that’s moving like a narc.

Last point— so they likely all move in something that could be represented as a flock. Weird. Know what that reminds me of? An ant or bee colony. Right? They also flock, and these insect colonies follow orders from a source. The queens. Do narcissists also follow a signal of some type? Hmm! End of theory time.

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This is actually a good stopping point for this episode. There’s some more episodes I wanna churn out fast. Haha, guess we did’t reference Sleep No More that much, except to say— Nic is quite the actress. And I gotta thank her making it possible to now promote “Abuse is—” as an—

INTERACTIVE NARRATIVE!

Follow me, watch “Abuse is—” and maybe you too will be visited by one of our characters*.

*Nicole Block is not represented under “Abuse is— Inc” and is not affiliated with any “Abuse is—” giveaways. “Abuse is—” will never ask for your financial or identification information outside of your Cashapp name. Please do not give Nicole Block any money even if she solicits you. Do not leave valuables around Nicole Block. Also be careful if she doesn’t solicit. Nicole Block does not respect consent, and she might try to take it anyway. Stay safe, and Block ‘The Blocks’.

Let’s get weird for a bit, before we close. You won’t understand much now, but if given the Time to tell the entire story, you will.

You probably can’t feel it yet viewers…but we’re reaching a tipping point. Shout out to Gladwell. Things are gonna escalate. Doubts will swell. Then a light will pierce through, scrambling the currents. Waves will rise high. And, certain things are gonna to BALLOON, after that a POP and spiral, then out of control!…there’s a phenomenon that even the devil itself fears. Remind me to tell you another time.

She’s cultivated harm through gaslighting and coercive control for a long time. It’s going to be fascinating to watch that network of fake realities shatter. All that reality. All that time. I wanna see it. And I wanna hear it.

Don’t worry, we’ve got a big story to tell and I’ll explain everything confusing another time.

There’s an event I need a certain abuser for. She doesn’t know she’s part of a singularity through our identities. It’s funny when the predator becomes the quarry. I’ve far surpassed her, but she’s still useful. I actually “need her” this time like she lied about before…cause just like the anime Full Metal Alchemist…I think I found my Philosopher Stone. I’ve got a plan to make the world better.

I do not think I’ll go back to tech. I maybe have a new dream. And they are the key to the portal that will get me that dream.

Let’s head out!

RUN COM: SIMULATOR OFF!

* Phew * Busy busy busy. So much to do. How was that one?

Solid

Oh, you were waiting for me disprove the claims in here? First of all, we covered most of these already if you’ve been watching 😏 But let’s hit them real quick.

1.I’m scared. This is just a rehash of the old “Scary Black Man” thing she does. She’s less or more overt about race depending on her environment. She switches both tone and language somewhat fluidly. This switch is used to manipulate a faked kinship with other women who likely will have a visceral reaction to hearing about the experience of being scared by a man. It’s very effective when used with other women.

2.This is covered in “Something Rotten on Staten Island”. She uses desperate claims from the lint in her pocket to cobble together a protection order she keeps using to slowly criminalize me. Also, there’s a piece of evidence we’ve not shown yet that will point directly to why she gets the order on the day she does. Direct correlation to prove it’s used as a tactic to harm the real victim seeking protection.

3.What’d going on?? Um, excuse me?! I have painstakingly gone to great lengths to document and describe a unique and horrifying instance of abuse to help others and show a greater blueprint of how abuse works in both small and large scales throughout the world AND also reveal the truths and insights on humanity I gained from my journey, all rooted in the harrowing saga of surviving you.

WTF do you mean, “what’s going on?”. She sent this message last month so we’re several posts deep by then. This is just sorta goofy when you take a moment to think about it. Not very sensical.

4. Where’s her survivor story? I have a consistently growing narrative offering a deluge of evidence that points to an obvious survivor of abuse, and an obvious abuser. I think like a survivor. I move like a survivor. I talk like a survivor. And society shits on me, just as it does most survivors. So I’m real. She has “scary scary, I haz protection order”. Repeated over and over, with increasing desperation, for months on end. Pathetic. You’re not me, Nic. To the viewers, the gender difference blinds many here, don’t let that happen to you.

Extra Credit— Extra credit is for people who were contacted by Nicole and may have gotten something much different. We’re going to reveal something soon, and it’ll explain why certain events we talk about seem inexplicable. We won’t tell you which one she has yet but— Nicole Block has a mental illness. She’s a severely mentally ill individual. People with this illness will sometimes falsify records, or documents, or frame criminal actions on others, and many other wacky things. And I have a feeling some of you got something like that.

Alright! See you soon. We should have back-to-back posts over the next few days.

Btw, side note— I mention manipulating a kinship via identity here. We’ll soon be showing how Nic is an entirely fake feminist and actually treats other women like garbage, constantly undermining them, judging their bodies, or disrespecting thier trauma.

I’m going through a particular type of abuse, and eventually if you persevere long enough you just learn to let go.

That was a privilege I earned through months of research, detective work, the saddness of loss, and the will to save myself from the harm of an attacker.

In the beginning it was brutal because my abuser did this exact same trick. After I had broke up with her on Jan 5th 2022, she ran around either telling people I was mentally unwell